Nagib's Post

Dear Diary,

For the past few days, I have been feeling so sick and weird. I don’t know what is wrong with me. The Doctor said that I have been also sleepwalking and mumbling in my sleep. It is not much a pain or anything, nothing like normal sickening but it is a weird dark feeling on the inside. More like guilt and remorse but I myself refuse to believe it. Is it possible that after all the deeds that I have done and achieving the rank of Queen, my only consequence would be myself? I actually have been starting to realize subconsciously that I have hurt a lot of people around me and now it’s like all of their sorrow is somehow inside me. Or is it that it’s my sorrow from my conscience slowly telling me about that evil deeds I have committed. I am as confused right now as I feel like there is a battle between regret and satisfaction in my head. At one side I am filled with tremendous regret of the entire thing I have done and on the other it’s that I am satisfied where I am as queen and that it was my destiny to become that. My guilt is slowly eating me on the inside as the days go by and my deed of inhumanity slowly reflects itself. I don’t know what to do as I am so confused and mentally unstable right now. Now that I realize it, this situation me and Macbeth have created is nothing more than a dead end. Sooner or later, people will realize, it was us that killed Duncan and Banquo and done all the other horrible deeds. It will only be a matter of time before we are exposed. I don’t know what to do and I just wish I never did this in the first place.

-Lady Macbeth